I feel motivated

Over the past 1 year time, i feel like life has less meaningful. Everyday when i wake up to work, i feel no motivation and always query myself what is my life for. This feeling has changed after having Kai Shuen. Even though i was tiring taking care of her, but i feel so satisfied and motivated each day. I dont know exactly why but i guess it is beacuase now that there is a small life depending on me, i have the responsibility and i became more strong :)

Taking care and playing with her is so much fun, especially now that she know how to smile back when i do the "ang gu gu" on her, she is such a clever gal, learn to smile and play ang gu gu in less than 1.5month times :)

Never thought that i could be so patient taking care of baby, but i did it, guess it is a mother nature. I must say great job to myself :)

Have you seen The Human Spring Cot?

Picture paint a thousand word :)

世上只有"爸爸"好....:P

Kai Shuen's present

Kai Shuen will be one month old this sat, thanks to all family and friends for the presesnt and ang pow. See her picture with her present...hehe..so many toys waitting for her to play with when she grow up! :)

That day aunty cook one special dish for me during the tea time. I call it Chinese Pizza cause it looks like it. It was made from egg, mee sua, onion and chili, taste good ler...I never knew that mee sua can make such a delicious food :)

Kai Shuen start to get naughty...

8 more days and Kai Shuen will be full moon, times really flew...After fullmoon when the confinement aunty went back, my challenge will start...now she already very naughty d, sleep very less and when she is not sleeping, she want poeple carry her and she dont like to stay on her bed...hmmm...even though at sleep, she seems to want poeple accompany her, once we left her alone, she seems to sense it and will start to make noise again :(
I guess this character of sleeping less follow me. I also not the type that can sleep a lot. People say lady in confinement period need to rest and sleep a lot, but i just cant. I lay down in the afternoon time trying to sleep but i just cant fall into sleep, so i prefer sit up and online :)
I even cant sleep early at night because usually i wake up around 9.30 in the morning. So i guess a day's sleep of 9 hours is more than enough for me :) Maybe i should change my habit, to sleep at 10.30pm and wake up at 7.30am...but i just dont feel like waking up earlier in the morning especially now that i dont need to work..kekeke...

However, good thing is I found her slowly likes to latch on already, and while doing so, sometimes she can fall into sleep. So i guess next time when aunty is back, and i have to take care of her at night, i will just lay down and let her latch on until she sleep :)

Really not easy to be mom and dad....One of my colleague used to say that coming to work now is like a rest for her...hehe..resting from being tired taking care of her baby.

人生无常...

Life is an unknown, we will never know if tomorrow will come. Even though i seems to understand this but still when something happen, it will trigger me deeply to appreciate what I have in my life.
This morning i received a bad new about a fren. She just passed away yesterday half an hour after deliver to a baby boy. What a sad new...
While i was breasfeeding my gal this morning, i was so sad, that she will never had the chance to do so...
While i was trying to get my baby into sleep this morning, I dint compliant at all why she took so long still dont want to sleep because i knew that someone maynot even have the chance to do so....
While i am feeling so sad for my friend, i feel so blessed at the same time....for all the things that i have today...being healthy, having a good husband and a cute gal, both my parent and my families members are in good health and joyful always.
Thanks god for what i have today and i will always be grateful and never complaints again...

Poh Suan, I hope you will rest in peace.....

A special birthday

This year birthday was a very special one to me. Even though i knew that birthday is also called 母难日，but i never really understand the meaning of it deep dwon in my heart. But this year is a special one for me because i had become a mother, i know how it feel to carry a baby inside you for 9 months and how excited and yet scary experinece of delivery to a child. So, i can really appreciate the real meaning of birth date - It was not about me or celebrating it with family or fren, but it is truely a thankful day, a day that u should say thank to your mum for giving you a life while risking her's.
I called my mum this morning to say thank to her and while i was saying so, my tear dropped, i dont know why...but i feel really great about it. I knew she will be very happy to hear what i had said too...just hope that it is not too late :)
For my future birthday, i shall continue to say thanks to her and be toghether with her - THANKS MOM!!!